why is i every time i get myself totally sleep deprived and make up for it a little bit, i immediately use that gain to burn the candle at both ends and make myself just *that* much more exhausted than i was before? i swear, sometimes i think i *want* to suffer like this. then again, sometimes i think if i could only have what to me is the *natural* sleep time of 1:30 to 9, then i would be fine. i've never liked any other sleep time. hate going to bed any time before midnight and completely resent having to be up before 8. i even studied sleep deprivation and patterns and i understand and could readjust to it, have fixed it a few times, but i always slip back.
oh! one bit of lightness here:caleb' s hilarious list of personal reasons to go to germany