i am really tired, have a pounding headache, its' 800 degrees out, and i really just want to go read someplace nice like a park.
and forget working on the book for a while! i need to get distance, i've had my brain and emotions overworked in the past 24 hours, any more and i will overload. like people are just overstimulating me and/or i'm the silent partner who is nodding but not really bothered. i don't think any of all this fuss will amount to the hugest amount of work, but i need to back away from it a few days to get my equilibrium and be able to function on my own, having internalized all the hubbub.
sorry if this post doesn't make sense to anyone but me and probably mercredi, just wanted to mark down the moment.
hmmm, so far opinion seems divided. i am mildly surprised by this, as it seemed obvious and predictable to me what i'd be listening to. so far there are 2 votes for it and i know 1 of them is mine b/c in order to see the poll you have to vote, so that's what i did. any further guesses?
I am half-way through reading a new book and must say, I'm a bit disappointed really. I picked up Swordspoint because it sounded like sort of a medieval gay knight's tale and it had spectacular reviews, all praising the writer's prose technique as something truly startling. I'd also read some comparisons to Lynn Flewelling's Nightrunner series and since I *love* that...
Well, anyway, long story short, so far I am not all that impressed. First off, book has a lot of fussy political intrigue which my brain just tosses aside, although I guess that would make some people all excited. Second point, the prose is not impressing me all that much either. I read one review where the person was saying "oh, I thought Lynn Flewelling was good but Kushner is so much better" and I don't agree AT ALL with that. This book is too dry. Of course it's true I am just leaving two straight years of reading Storm Constantine, so naturally *everything* is going to be "dry" but still, it's hard to adjust to that. Maybe I should go reread Ethan Frome and get a hang for stark!
About the only satisfying thing about the book is the gay lovers aspects, which I'm enjoying. The set up is that there's this professional swordsman who has this lover who's an ex-student and seemingly from the nobility, only he's refusing to tell anything about his background. The swordsman is illiterate and though he works for the nobility, doing their duels and killing for them, he looks to his lover's knowledge of the nobility for assistance. Meantime the mysterious lover has this attitude where one second he's so tender and vulnerable but then he's a total nasty asshole, with seeminly a very large death wish. I have no idea whether or not we get to find out what his secret is but I hope so, else I'll be frustrated and have to read the sequel to this, Return of the King, I think it is.
Today I feel a lot like I used to in high school in college when I'd have teachers and profs who'd push classes so, so inredibly hard that it was painful... but at the same time it was really, really good for you and it was really out of love that they were doing it. Like my Russian professor whose lessons would take me four hours a night to master or Dr. Best and his insistence on 30-minutes of LATIN language lab every day or Ms. Barnes and those art critiques or those oral presentations for Mrs. Hutchinson. Sometimes living up to high standards is hard but it's the only way to improve. Later you look back on it and realize it was painful at the time because you were just stretching so much. I'll have to keep that in mind and meanwhile find the mental equivalent of some Ben Gay ;)