I meant to say, this morning during my brief "sun's woken me up" period, I noticed I'd been having a freaky dream involving guinea pigs, giant spinach, dyed rabbits and this woman Eleanor who's a client of mine. Basically, there was one part where Eleanor and I were in this forrest of giant spinach. It was freakin' SCARY, I think possibly because the spinach was all moving around because it was being eaten by dinosaur-sized guinea pigs! Meanwhile, sometime later in the dream, I found this bunch of white rabbits, only somebody had dyed them using KoolAid so they were like green and purple and stuff.
And again I say, who NEEDS drugs?!
Had my annual OB/GYN appt. today. It's funny, I probably would have put off scheduling it except last time I phoned in to have them renew my pill prescription, they caught me on it. I guess kudos to them for being on top of things!
Some interesting developments came out of it. For one thing, I had a new doctor who I really, really liked. Not that I disliked the other two doctors, but this new one Dr. Martin was much more attentive and thorough -- plus she had such good bedside manner I swear she talked me into giving her my biz card while I was wearing that paper towel outfit they make you wear ;)
The other thing that happened is that the docotr felt a lumpy type thing in my left boob and scheduled me for an ultrasound. She said it's probably either nothing or a cyst. My boobs are pretty lumpy so it's hard to tell what's a "problem" but she said since it was only on one side it's worth checking out. I have to go in next week to get scanned.
So far my day's been busy, busy! On the way to the appt., which was at 9:15, I got my MARTA pass. Then after the appt., I came back and got a bagel, picked up my drycleaning, got the newspaper, and now I'm doing filing and invoices for the month. I've got a ton of work piled up for the afternoon and the Save MARTA thing tonight at 6. Where the hell the caffeinne I need?
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Gee, I didn't know I could buy depression! Hey, if eBay will take mine, maybe somebody would buy it off me!
At least I have my sense of humor. It's SO weird to me how I can joke and smile and be nice to people and feel like I've been crying for 2 hours and my head's going to explode.
i am totally not feeling better. the past few months have sucked with depresion. i have better days, even days when i'm hyped up and confident and happy. but as soon as i have those good days i crash big time. through sheer determination i can get through the day and do stuff but in essence, i find that although part of my head knows what i have to do and what i should be happy or excited about (and this part is the one that makes me keep on), often i just don't care at all, i don't feel what i should feel. i just feel sad and apathetic about everything. and my head is killing me and i want to cry because i think whatever chemicals make you cry are turned on just for no particular reason.