June 30th, 2004

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Riotous Upheaval

I swear, I was *rousted* out of bed this morning!

For some reason, my birds Pell and Cal had a FIT of chirping at 7:45. Not just one or two chirps but chirp-chirp-chirp-chirp-chirp-chirp-chirp-chirp for about 15 minutes straight. I hadn't even uncovered the cage yet! I think there must have been some bird or sound outside they heard and were responding to but if there was, I couldn't hear it because they were being so loud. In fact they were doing it again all through breakfast and are doing it now and I still don't know why. Nice day?

Actually the birds weren't the only weird thing about waking up. The second was that I was right in the middle of a very vivid dream about Clean Sweep. Obviously I watch TLC & "those shows" too much if I'm actually dreaming of a fictitious house & family whose home is being cleaned out. I mean, I actually was watching an episode in my head, with the host, the stuff laid out in the yard, the interior work, the yard sale, everything!

And I think right when I was trying to ignore the wretched chirping, I had a short dream I went to some George Michael concert with Daniel and when he came on stage, he looked like he was about 50, had gained like 30-40 lbs and was bald. It didn't look anything like him and while Daniel was all like "See, that's what happens when you don't maintain..." I decided the concert promoters had put in a substitute as a publicity stunt and this guy was a total imposter.
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What the...?

The birds are still at it. 2 hours of flying around chirping. I need to clean their cage baaaaaaad, was going to do it today actually, but maybe this is their protest. A very LOUD one!

Jeez, and one of them just ran head-on into my bedroom window. (She's fine.) They don't ever fly into windows unless they're hysterical, like scared of something. I wonder if there's a falcon flying around somewhere outside and they hear it or see it? I know there's a family of peregrine falcons living right around here on a skyscraper...
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The other shoe dropped

I just knew something like this was going to happen. Thought I could get away with just doing those two web sites for Calab's work and finishing up a lot of Mat Man's site. Well, now I find out I have to do the two image preference surveys for those projects at Caleb's work. That alone is a full day of work. I guess I can just expect to work full days today through Friday and not even think about packing! Or Mat Man's annoyance I'm still not done. Trying to do as much as I can but... Eeek!
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Pop goes my ear

I've been taking stuff for my sinus infection for a week but the Boogie Monster is still doing a number on me, not much change. My ear and jaw still are aching. I was kind of hoping things would get better so the pressure shifts on the airplane wouldn't be quite so bad, but I think I will have to trust in my heavy duty earplugs again, they help a little bit at least.
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Stepfamilies, families, my family

For a 2-3 years I've subscribed to The Sun magazine; my mom originally got me a gift subscription and now I pay for it myself. My favorite section -- and the reason I subscribe -- is called Readers Write. This is is a section, around 8 pages long, of nothing but personal (something *very* personal) real-life stories by readers. Every month there's a theme based on a keyword (e.g. Sadness, Regret, Vacation, Broken, etc.). No matter what the theme, the stories move me, sometimes into tears -- in public places even! I mean, there is such truth in these stories it really touches me and makes me think about my own lives or people I know, about the human condition, human frailty, human strength.

Anyway, the word for July was "Stepfamilies." Now coming from a completely solid non-divorced family with siblings who are (so far as I know) very unlikely to ever divorce, I don't really have any first-hand experience with the subject. My best friend growing up (dharmagirl) had a stepdad Mark who was pretty alright but I really didn't grow up with any concept of what divorce (or remarriage for whatever reason) was like as far as kids went. It wasn't until I was in college that I started to hear a lot of stories from people; it seemed like people like me were a lot more rare than people whose parents were divorced or separated or who parents had never even been married. I realized I had something pretty precious, not just because my parents had been together for a zillion years (they're almost to their 50th anniversay!!!!!) but because my parents get along and there is very little strife between them.

The Sun's stories brought this feeling of gratitude back to me. Not all the stories were sad -- some of them were very positive, like a stepdaughter realizing her stepdad loved her just like she was his own -- but a lot of them were. Reading the stories, getting teary a few times, I realized I would not have been able to cope very well if my parents had ever broken apart. To me my parents are a unit, not separate things and I would have totally, totally freaked if something had happened.

I remember when I was in college there was a time period where due to the effects of his medication (or b/c he wasn't taking it) my father was really argumentative and I noticed him and my mom fighting a lot. I was really scared for a bit, thinking I was witnessing their 40-year-plus marriage suddenly falling apart and knowing my mom would not put up with his treatment forever. I told Caleb, "I swear, I think they're going to get divorced or something, I've never seen them like that!" Thankfully the situation corrected itself and ever since they've been happy together like two old shoes. Dad has some resentment that Mom controls his life as far as diet, medication and exercise, but he is also grateful, I'm sure, because he couldn't survive without her. I really, really hope they get to celebrate their 50th anniversary together because they really deserve it.

P.S. Maybe I'm just being over-cautious but I do want to stress that this post is just about me. I'm not saying anything about/against anybody whose parents are divorced or who is divorced. I certainly don't hold myself superior or something. Anybody who's heard my describe my childhood or my parents' (esp. my mother's) weirdness knows that my home life wasn't exact normal, LOL.
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Is this me? Evil genius?

I know, I KNOW these tests are dumb, but sometimes you get zapped b/c they're right!

--Results of this personality test--

You are an SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.

Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.

You are not to be messed with. You may explode.


Actually, while I think this smacks of truth, I think it applies even lot more to Caleb than to me. But maybe he has molded me that way?
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