October 11th, 2004

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Absorbing work

When you're demented like me, you face situations like this:

I got so involved in work and then editing a manuscript (done, BTW!) that from 6 to about midnight, I forgot to eat dinner... or anything at all. No, wait, I had a PB & J sandwich at like 8. Or drink anything. At all.

Now it's 1 and I'm really hungry and thirsty. However, it's 1. I guess I can make a snack of some kind, but the fact I'm going to bed right after is kind of funny to me.

Tempus fugit when you're having fun.
  • Current Mood
    accomplished accomplished
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The Workaholic

I guess it's a sign I worked too hard on that MS last night when I wake up dreaming about a new Microsoft Office Assistant. Not that Mr. Paperclip is active on *my* computer, but in the dream there was this new "helper" that was actually kind of GOOD, surprisingly. I can't think of the exact icon, but it was red and cute, like the Japanese had come up with it, and it would appear as you worked and tried to help. I think the reason it was superior to Mr. Paperclip is that it would go away instantly without you having to click it away, kind of like it could read your mind.


I'm listening to one of my very favorite albums from my middle school / high school years, Big Science by Laurie Anderson. Absolutely brilliant. I have a lot of fond memories of this album, not the least of which was first discovered it in my sister Nancy's LP collection in like 1988. I remember this was one of the CDs I brought with me to Germany when I spent the summer there in 1992; Gisela kept telling me she didn't understand "Example 22." A year later, I remember reading "Let X=X" in front of my senior year English class as an example of one of my favorite poems. I think in college I used "Sweaters" to make one of my roommates leave the room.

Here's a man who lives a life of danger.
Everywhere he goes he stays -- a stranger.


I just finished editing that MS but I still have a long list of projects I'm doing for Immanion Press. Including stuff in progress and/or up the pipeline and not ready to be worked on: the final Wraeththu novel Ghosts to edit, a story to be published later, a novella to write, a (non-Wraeththu) short story anthology to edit, a Wraeththu novel to edit, another Wraeththu novella to edit, and MORE!


And now I will get to work.
  • Current Music
    "From the Air" -Laurie Anderson
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The quotable Laurie Anderson

I wanted you. And I was looking for you.
But I couldn't find you.
I wanted you. And I was looking for you all day.
But I couldn't find you. I couldn't find you.

You're walking. And you don't always realize it,
but you're always falling.
With each step, you fall forward slightly.
And then catch yourself from falling.
Over and over, you're falling.
And then catching yourself from falling.
And this is how you can be walking and falling
at the same time.

"Walking and Falling,"
Big Science, Laurie Anderson

  • Current Music
    "Born, Never Asked" -Laurie Anderson
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My beloved last name

dar·ling Audio pronunciation of "darling" ( P ) Pronunciation Key (därlng)


1. A dearly beloved person.
2. One that is greatly liked or preferred; a favorite: "the pride and vanity of the rich, the darlings of fate" (Mario Puzo).


1. Dearly beloved.
2. Regarded with special favor; favorite: "Metaphysics and poetry... are my darling studies" (Samuel Taylor Coleridge).
3. Informal. Charming or amusing: a darling hat.

[Middle English dereling, from Old English dorling : dore, dear + -ling, diminutive suff..]
  • Current Music
    "Example 22" -Laure Anderson
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Honors colleges

This article on honors colleges at public universities and colleges interests me. Apparently there are those who question the wisdom of spending extra money on a minority of students who are smart anyway and don't need the help. Well, having been in the honors college at UMass, I have to say it really was very nice (as the article says, "an upgrade from coach to first class") and offered me things (classes, advice, computer lab) I couldn't have had otherwise.

Re resources, it seems to me that if schools are going to be doing all these *remedial* classes to students who barely got in b/c they did so bad in high school, they should also help the *top* students -- most of whom don't *have* to be there at the school but who couldn't afford to go elsewhere. It's like the whole thing with spending a ton of money on football programs but money for the theater department is like some incomprehensible idea.

But of course I forget I'm just an elitist.


On a related note, lately I have had this nagging feeling I would like to go in for some more education. I mean, all in all, I had a top-notch public education and university experience, but at this point I am feeling like my knowledge is gettin' old and I would like to renew. I'm NOT thinking about grad school (what is it with everybody going and doing that?!) but doing some more non-fic reading and some continuing ed. courses. Goethe Institut or music or art or some more IWG-HWG web dev. courses or just even some random academic class, though I don't know what it would be . Assuming things stay OK money-wise, I'd really like to take classes at Atlanta College of Art; I got the course catalog recently and there are several courses I think would challenge me to learn something and maybe expand what I can do.
  • Current Mood
    thoughtful thoughtful
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Oct. 11

I just noticed the date and two things clicked in my mind:

National Coming Out Day, which I used to celebrate / cover as a reporter in my days at UMass


My Opa's (maternal grandfather's) birthday; had he not died a month before I was born, he would be 105 today! I always found it cool that he was born in the 19th century.
  • Current Music
    "A Day in the Life" -Beatles
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Decided to make all these stockpiled poetry books (many of them never fully read) my new bathroom reading material. Recently I finished the 60-page Howl and Other Poems by Allen Ginsberg, a little pocket edition put out by City Lights in San Francisco, the original publisher of most of these poems.

I'd read some of these poems (like "Howl") before but some of them were new to me. In addition to the usual thougthful, biting Ginsberg, I came across some really beautiful lines, including the lovely "Sunflower Sutra," which contains:

We're not our skin of grime, we're not our dread bleak dusty imageless locomotive, we're all beautiful golden sunflowers inside, we're blessed by our own seed & golden hairy naked accomplishment-bodies growing into mad black formal sunflowers in the sunset, spied on by our eyes under the shadow of the mad locomotive riverbank sunset Frisco hilly tincan evening sit-down vision.

And "Song" has the rather immortal words:

The weight of the world
is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction.

One thing I found funny, and which Ginsberg would appreciate (and not mind at all) is that I read this all on the toilet. About half of it I read out loud, as I think poetry makes MUCH mor sense that way. Anyway, I'm sure T.S. Eliot would not be nearly as tolerant of such treatment; he is my next victim.
  • Current Mood
    okay okay


In case anybody is interested, I'm selling 3 books on eBay:

Link to my items

The first, Science Fiction Culture, is the academic analysis of SF culture I just read or at least read part of, for book group. I didn't care for it much b/c academic prose just isn't my thing, esp. when it's not assigned for class. I can read long non-fiction books on history or politics or sociology, but not academic ones. If you can get around the packaging, it could be your thing.

The second is the Roger Zelazny short story collection I finished recently. For the most part, that wasn't my thing either but lots of folks apparently love him, so hey, let them have the book.

The last is a spare copy of Freda Warrington's Dark Cathedral. I noticed that the average price of a used copy of this book appears to be like $40 since it's out of print and in demand. Hopefully somebody meets my minimum since I got the thing free at Grissecon last year!
  • Current Music
    "Tomorrow Never Knows" -Beatles
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The AR-Amazon Story

I swear to crap this story is like a vampire -- it won't die! Personally, I think it makes AR look stupid.

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I personally love that old standard quote of hers: "I have no intention of allowing any editor ever to
distort, cut or otherwise mutilate sentences that I have edited and re-edited, and organized and polished myself."

Oh, right, I'm sure LOTS of big authors use NO editors... and that AR's farts don't smell!
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    annoyed annoyed
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"Clean" Reading

To Margaret Young, vice chairman of the Charles County Board of Education, the required reading lists in her Southern Maryland school system are teeming with "profanity and pornography, fornication and adultery."

The Board's idea? Hand out Bibles.

Because, you know, the Bible contains zero profanity and pornography, fornication and adultery. Or violence. Or racism. Or sexism...

Article in the W. Post (subscription required).
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Friends shouldn't do this

I hate when somebody I NEVER hear from suddenly emails me and I get excited, only to find it's just some piece of stupid meme / urban legend / petition and the only reason they emailed is because they hit "Send to Everybody In Address Book."
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    annoyed annoyed