March 5th, 2006

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Depressing, lazy Sunday

I've been so depressed all day today. There isn't any reason for it either -- lovely weather, got a job, had a birthday party for Daniel -- just the usual stupid depression come back to haunt me. All I seem to want to do is sleep and laze about doing nothing, when really I should be filled with energy and joie de vivre or whatever it's called.

Had the hardest time getting up this morning. Actually I woke up around 6 with my thoughts racing, then shifted over to sleep on the sofa. I woke up there at 7, 8 and 9, thanks to tha animals, then took about a half hour, maybe more, to get UP! I listened to shows on Animal Planet with my eyes closed. Finally I got up and went over to work at the AHS mobile adoption van, only I wound up waiting around 45 minutes before a phone call revealed the driver was out sick and the thing was cancelled. I went home after that, thinking, "Oh, good, I can use this time to clean and edit!" But instead of doing that, I went to sleep! I turned on Animal Planet and drifted in and out of sleep (mostly IN) for 3 hours!

Finally I did get up, although I was still all woozy. I'd developed a headache in the morning and as soon as I got up from my nap, it came back to me. I also felt really nauseous and dizzy sort of. But it was time for Daniel's birthday party. Caleb got Daniel's a delicious fruit & custard tart and Daniel got presents from me, Caleb and Caleb's coworker & friend Carolina, who also came by. It was lots of fun, even though I felt tired and sick.

I went home around 5:30 and, rather predictably, slept MORE! Or at least I lazed around in bed, unable to motivate myself to do anything. I didn't even ever cook dinner, just at a bagel, some low-fat chips, and fruit for dinner. And tea. About the only thing I DID do all day was, between 8 and 10, clean up the main room. That seemed like a major accomplishment, alas. Meanwhile I put on Impromptu, one of my favorite movies, so I was entertained as I did the cleaning. Not that the room has any chance of surviving a white glove inspection, but at least I've got the clothes off the floor, cat toys put away, bird seed hulls vacuumed up, dishes washed.

This week I have to work really hard to tie up all the loose ends I have, big client projects I want to complete before I start my job. I dearly hope I wake up tomorrow feeling up to it! I'm thinking of going to bed early tonight just so I have no excuse to loll around in bed or fall asleep tomorrow. If I have to drink a lot of coffee, so be it!