Lately I seem to be experiencing little bouts of somewhat inexplicable depression. It's like flashes of this sh*t come through the layers of paint I've slathered on in recent months. I happened last night at Game Night for a couple of hours; I just felt really out of it and lonely, even though there were like 30 people around having a good time and there was no reason I couldn't join them. I just couldn't deal with it. Then today I've had some satisfying experiences, like going to an organ concert, but then suddenly later I came down with this feel like I'm drowning in the anti-andrenaline -- anxiety, self-doubt, and aversion to work are all pressing down on me. Obviously things are out of balance somehow. Got to work on that.