December 1st, 2007

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Writer's Block: What Makes Me Brave

On this day in 1955, Rosa Parks refused to give up her bus seat to a white man. What have you done that is brave?

I've done more than my fair share of going against the grain, in terms of doing stuff that brings me into the spotlight as different, rather than blending in, going along, and that sadly is rather braved compared to a lot of people. One of my older sisters was absolutely horrified when I came out, not because of the sexuality thing but because oh, no, what would people THINK, what would HAPPEN to me if people KNEW I was DIFFERENT?! Whereas I personally found it very easy to deal with.

It really relates my attitude to my self-presentation in general. I grew up trying so, so hard to be invisible, trying not to be noticed, but it never, ever worked -- I was always too big, too loud, and my clothes were just all wrong. But once I just embraced that and said, "Hey, here I am!" with attitude and confidence, I realized that positive things would happen, not negative. That kind of thing terrifies most people, keeps them from buying those funky glasses, changing their job, or otherwise stepping apart from the crowd.

But it's not that hard to be brave about these things, once you start.