April 11th, 2010

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Writer's Block: Back to the future

If you were 12 and could see yourself now, do you think you'd be happy or disappointed, and why?

Good question!

I think that overall, my 12-year-old self would be quite pleased and excited. A lot of things have happened how I wanted them to. Of course, it's also true that in those days I was thinking I'd be dead or insane by 30, so... let's say my optimism was tempered. I wasn't depressed per say but I imagined a lot of upcoming drama.

But overall, lots of things I dreamed of then have happened:

I live in a city
have an apartment like my grandmother
do cool computer stuff
do creative things like writing and photography
have had a novel published
have met several of my favorite writers
speak German
have traveled to Europe a dozen + times

I also want to add that my current & continuing single life wouldn't surprise me at all either. I never, ever had those sort of "Going to grow up and get marrrrrried!" thing going on. I didn't expect or rely on some freakin' Prince Charming to come around but then as now, was most interested in going my own way. And if things happen, OK, but that was not at all the aim. 

There are a couple of things my 12-year-old self would be very surprised with, however:

I live in Georgia.... (even my 35-year-old self says "What?!) every day)
I'm overweight
I wear dresses & skirts almost exclusively
Most of my friends are gay
I have a job that didn't exist (and didn't exist when I graduated in HS either)

So yeah, good basis for a story?!